Celebrating each moment

It truly is amazing just  how much my thinking can change how my life goes. I have been working very hard at keeping positive and encouraging thoughts in my head and heart lately. I do have times when that stinkin' thinkin' creeps back in. I don't let it stay long and I don't beat myself up for letting it in. As long as I can kick it to the curb, all is great!

I am having days where I feel like I could just fly to the stars because I feel so awesome. This is very unusual for me as I used to be the one that was always down and felt like crying. No more! Those are the days I am putting behind me. I know one of those days will creep in (one did on Sunday) but I will kick it aside and keep on moving.

I am going to celebrate every moment of my day with my happy positive thoughts! No more grey skies for me....just more and more rays of sun!

Emotional Dependence

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about some things lately and one thing that keep popping up is emotional dependence. I am so much aware that I am doing this lately and am trying to stop it. I do not need to depend on someone else to life my spirits or make me happy. No one can make me happy. If I am happy when talking to them or spending time with them it is because I have chosen to enjoy their company. By realizing that I am making that choice makes it easier to find enjoyment doing things by myself. It opens up so many possibilities to me to create my own happiness. Now instead of saying “You make me feel good.” I can smile and say, “I enjoy having you in my life”.

As with anything that has been a habit for so long, this will take time to fully overcome. The first step is that I am aware that I do it. The rest is easy.

Positive Affirmation for January 23, 2012

Growing and changing is fun. I enjoy the process.

My three MITs (most important tasks) for January 23, 2012

1. reflect on some things that I have been doing

2. schoolwork

3. work at least 15 minutes in my room

Quotes:

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. ~Eleanor Roosevelt

That was stinkin' thinkin'

I am long overdue for this blog entry and I do apologize for anyone that has been waiting. Depression and stinkin’ thinkin’ grabbed hold of me and held on tight. I am still working on throwing the little bugger off me but he is still lingering. I know that during the times I am depressed it is probably even more important for me to be posting than even the good time. Posting the bad will help me reflect on the bad things to see what changes I can make and posting the good will help me remember that I can get through the rough spots and make the changes that I need.

I had some people express that they would like some background information about David and my past in general. I have been considering this during the much too long “break” in my posts. I can understand how know something may be helpful to the reader; however, the purpose of making these changes is to move forward, not to look back. With this in mind, what I will do is reflect on the past when it is needed and appropriate but won’t give a huge past background post. This way the reader gets the background information as it is needed and I only have to relive it in small doses.

I am not going to try to recap the past several days as I don’t even remember most of it anyway. I have been stressed and depressed for many reasons…home, work, school, relationships, etc. My mind and my heart have been all over the place like a roller coaster being tossed around in a tornado. I guess this can be looked at as a good thing though because it means that I am aware of at least some of what is going on inside of me with my thoughts and emotions. Being aware of it means that I can do something about it!

Short post tonight but there will be more tomorrow….that’s a promise to myself.

Make every day a new beginning. No not worry about what you didn't do yesterday, there's nothing you can do to change it. Begin again fresh each day with no regrets.

A Lesson in Anger

Monday, January 02, 2012

Positive thought of the day: 

I treat others the way I wish to be treated.  (from Louise L. Hay)

So this morning I tried out my first day with my new morning routine. Well, it would work better if I actually got up when I said I was going to. The alarm went off and I got up and reset it for an hour later and went back to bed.  Bad, bad , bad. Well, I laid there in bed having an internal fight with myself that I really should not be back in bed and should be doing my routine but then the other me would say but I don’t want to be awake yet. Well, I was back out of bed in 20 minutes! I didn’t do the 5 minutes of meditation or the 10 minutes of stretching or exercise that I had planned but I did manage to get everything else on my routine done. I even had some breakfast. Yay me!

After my shower and getting dressed I came down stairs and let the dog out. While he was out, I posted the positive thought of the day to my Facebook status. I was feeling pretty good about things until I had to go out and save the dog from the monster pine tree in the back yard. He had managed to get himself tangled up in some low branches. I had to go out in the cold and the dark and rescue him. I was sputtering about it until all of a sudden on the way back to the house I thought about the positive thought of the day. Treating others the way I wish to be treated doesn’t stop at just other human beings. Turbo, our dog, needed me and I got upset about it because I had to go out in the cold and dark to get him. I wouldn’t want someone to get upset with me if I need them for something. There have been times in the not so distant past that I was in need of a friend and reached out to someone that just brushed me aside even after I voiced several times that I needed a friend. It really hurt. I ended up being glad that I was able to help Turbo get out of the tree and back inside where it was warm so he could eat his breakfast too.

I drove to work feeling much better about myself than I had when I woke up. I cranked the music and sang with all my heart!

Work was pretty good today. I was starting to stress a bit at times but was able to manage to calm down. My day went from pretty good to completely awesome when an unexpected someone noticed my hair cut right away. It really made my day and I made sure to thank the person too! I drove home on cloud 9.  Hehe

My three MITs (most important tasks) for today were:

1. Work at least 15 minutes on the kitchen/dishes

2. Work on a before bed routine

3. School work (new class started today)

At this time, 8:48pm, I have the before bed routine figured out and have worked on school work and delegated the 15 minutes in the kitchen to my son.

The Daily challenge today on www.meyouhealth.com was: Strengthen core muscles with 5 bridge stretches. I did this after having to fight off the dog. He took the opportunity of me being on the floor to smoother me with kisses. I laughed so hard.

My Before Bed – Saturday thru Wednesday

Get my lunch together for the next day

Get my clothes out for the next day

Brush teeth

Moisturize

Clean cat box

Let the dog out

Swish & Swipe *

*swish & swipe is a FlyLady thing. You do a quick swish of the toilet bowl with the brush and swipe down the outside of the bowl, the bathroom sink and the mirror.

My three MITs for tomorrow:

1. Spend at least 15 minutes working in the kitchen

2. Schoolwork

3. Get the Christmas decorations down and put away

January Mantra:

I am open and receptive to all the good in the Universe. (from Louise L. Hay 2012 calendar You Can Heal Your Life.)

Quotes for the day:

Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to any on which it is poured.  ~Mark Twain

Anger, if not restrained, is frequently more hurtful to us than the injury that provokes it.  ~Lucius Annaeus Seneca

Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be.   ~Thomas Kempis

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it as someone else; you are the one who gets burned.  ~Buddha

The Secret of Getting Ahead....

Sunday, January 01, 2012

January Mantra: 

I am open and receptive to all the good in the Universe. (This comes from the Louise L. Hay 2012 calendar You can Heal Your Life)

Positive thought of the day: 

I am grateful for everything and everyone in my life.  (also from Louise L. Hay)

I am so very ready to make this year my very best year ever! Even though I was not ready to get out of bed this morning when my alarm went off 7am, I was up and ready to face the new year and the new day with enthusiasm. Well, as much as I could muster upon just getting up. I got around and left for work feeling a much lighter load on my shoulders this morning than previously. Although it was dreary outside, I was feeling pretty sunny.

With it being a holiday, most of my co-workers had taken the day off. The chat volume was incredibly low all day long and 99% of my chats were customer service. Seems everyone was either passed out all day or spent all their money on Christmas and bringing in the New Year so no one was looking to buy anything today. It was a pretty boring day but I actually welcomed it today. Work has had me incredibly stressed the past couple weeks so this was my little breather. Tomorrow is another day and as long as I can remember to keep my thoughts on good things, I will be just fine!

The Daily challenge today on www.meyouhealth.com is: Check to see that your lip balm offers sun protection of SPF 30 or higher. Well, I don’t normally use lip balm but I can see how having a sun screen on them can be very beneficial. Our lips are tender and just as susceptible, if not more, to cancer from the sun as the rest of us. I stopped at Walmart before heading home and while I was there I was looking at the lip balms. The highest SPF that I found was 15 and most of them didn’t even have an SPF rating listed. I will continue my search and start wearing lip balm to keep my lips kissable soft and protected from the sun.

One thing that I had on my list of things to do today was to set up my morning routine. I used to follow FlyLady and had done so very well when I did. I lost track of things and haven’t been following the things I had learned for quite some time now. This morning routine is my first step back to FLYing (Finally Loving Yourself).

My Morning Routine – Monday thru Thursday

Wake up at 5:00am

Quiet meditation for 5 minutes

Stretches or 10 minutes on my stepper

Clean cat box

Feed cats

Shower and dressed

Let the dog out

Feed the dog

Breakfast

Check email/Facebook/School

Leave for work

I will see how this works for me tomorrow and adjust it as needed.

Although I did find myself thinking about David a few times today, I managed to sweep him aside and focus on myself and what I was needing to do.

It was a great first day!!!

Quotes for the day:

Small deeds done are better than great deeds planned. ~Peter Marshall

The first step binds one to the second. ~French Proverb

Don’t find fault. Find a remedy. ~Henry Ford

The secret of getting ahead is getting started. ~Mark Twain

Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced. ~James Baldwin